It's been 3 months and a couple days since I last posted on my auxilary site. A lot has happened since October 3rd. A lot. My views on college, and relationships, and people have changed in some aspects...and stayed the same in others. The person that I started that site in response to really isn't a part of my life any more. I don't want her to be. At all. And it sucks because, as much as I fight it, she still affects me. But why do I still feel the need to carry around that baggage? I don't. So I'm deleting that blog right now. It's gone. It's over with. Let's all pause for a second while I close a chapter of my life.

There.

Thanks for sticking around while all of that crap was going on this summer. It was rough. But now everything...well, mostly everything....is better.

The Party Lifestyle.

I go back and forth with so often with this. Maybe it's because I'm away from school and crave some action. Maybe it's because I'm away from the 2YG and am not thinking about what it's like when I'm with her. Maybe because I'm working on my third (quality, not crappy) beer of in the last hour and a half. I dunno. I'm suddenly missing a good, solid, crazy, drunken party. The comraderie. The silliness. The memories. The stories. I really haven't had much of that this year. Partly because my best partying buddies were gone for the first half of the year, and partly because of the 2YG. Sometimes I think that I've had enough of that stuff that I don't really need it anymore. Sometimes I think that I haven't been to a good party in the last two years. A good house party is hard to come by nowadays at Wartburg. They're always overcome by the jocks. Some jocks...a select few....are cool, but other than them...the parties are lame. The same slutty girls, the same spikey haired guys.....lame, lame, lame. I'm not a fan of drugs, but the stoner parties that I used to attend were by far better. Just better people, and a better variety of people. Of course, I'd never attend those same parties now, because of past history with some select people...but still. It's hard to find a good party on campus/off campus now.

I guess it's hard to seperate myself from the 2YG come the weekend...'cause I know I'll want to be with her when I'm drunk, but those lines can't cross. They did once...and it was bad, bad, bad. She's not that type of girl at all. So that means I'd have to choose a party over her. And I don't think I want to do that....but I feel like I'm missing out on something. Like right now...I just want to forget the future and party. ARGH!

Whatever. The 2YG just called and I said I'd call her back in a sec. 'cause I was writing something. I wanted to finish my thought here, 'cause it matters to you all as well as to me. Ok, I'll post something else before I go back to school on Sunday. Have a good day!

So for New Years Eve, the 2YG's friends were going to come to the twin cities and we were all going to hang out and go out to eat and get to know each other. It was going to be a whole big evening. But then mother nature happened..and I got a phone call from her all upset that her friends were coming out and the night was ruined. Well....I of course got a hold of the situation, did some quick thinking since she's too young to take to a bar and such....so I said I'd make her a dinner and we'd spend the night together at my house, since my parents were going out for the night. So I made dinner and it was good...and we had some wine and it was good...and we sat and talked for real, face-to-face and it was good....and we watched a movie and it was definitely the best New Year's Eve I've had in a long time. Very little alcohol was drunk and we still had an awesomoe time. Or at least I had an awesome time...but I'm 99% sure she did too.

It's been a little bit of a tough break because of the distance between our homes, but we've done alright. Now we just need to get a through this next week...and then we're golden...but that's neither here nor there.....

New Year's Day was the day that our family FINALLY got to celebrate Christmas for real. It was great. I didn't really get too many presents, but this year it was definitely quality over quantity, for my parents and my brother and their wives gave me an iPod Nano, in addition to other presents. It was awesome. I really did NOT think I was going to get one, but I asked anyway....and wow. I can't wait to get back to school and get it hooked up to my computer and get it going for real. Of course, now I have to go to Best Buy or whatever and get a carrying case for it and get some protective gear for it, because I'm afraid I'll break it.

Woah. I just totatlly had a flash back Chad memory. When he was in junior high/high school, he used to thread a broken set of headphones through the sleeve of his hooded sweatshirt and sit with his head resting with his ear on this hand.....which was, of course, holding one side of the headphones....which lead down to a CD player in his front pocket...so he'd sit in class listening to music. Genious. Pure Genious.

Anyway...........

On a purely unrelated note, I was thinking about this next term of school. Certain people's schedules are changing so that I'll see them more, and possibly run into them at parties (if I ever go to any...'cause I don't if I can be with the 2YG instead) and that's not going to be pleasent. I guess I hadn't really thought about it...but now that I have....it kind of makes me sick/mad. I just don't want to deal with it...but I guess that's life. Whatever. Maybe it won't be as bad as I think it'll be....but I'm pretty sure it will be.

Ok, I'm going to go to bed now. I gotta work at SA AGAIN tomorrow. Ugh. So, so, so, so glad I went to college and don't have to work amongst the minions for the rest of my life.