damnit! I hate it when these computers are stupid and post the same thing twice!

well, I spent the past 3 hours at ESPN ZONE in downtown Denver watching the Gophers lose to North Dakota in the Frozen Four. It was a little disappointing, I'm not going to lie....but it was also happy hour while I was there and I got two 24 oz beers for 3 bucks each. Good deal. I didn't really eat supper...which is bad...but I'm not hungry either. I'm not sure what to do. I dunno.
Anyway....I realized that in my current state of mind, I shouldn't drink or get drunk during my last few days out here...even though I will....because it makes me miss certain people waaaaaaaay too much. It also makes me want to write, but I really can't in the conditions in which I would have to write out here.....too many computers and too many people around me. Annoying. I thought about going back to work after the bar this evening, but none of the writers that I knew were there, so I couldn't get in....oh well. At anyrate, I should do some homework for tomorrow. Dangit!

well, I spent the past 3 hours at ESPN ZONE in downtown Denver watching the Gophers lose to North Dakota in the Frozen Four. It was a little disappointing, I'm not going to lie....but it was also happy hour while I was there and I got two 24 oz beers for 3 bucks each. Good deal. I didn't really eat supper...which is bad...but I'm not hungry either. I'm not sure what to do. I dunno.
Anyway....I realized that in my current state of mind, I shouldn't drink or get drunk during my last few days out here...even though I will....because it makes me miss certain people waaaaaaaay too much. It also makes me want to write, but I really can't in the conditions in which I would have to write out here.....too many computers and too many people around me. Annoying. I thought about going back to work after the bar this evening, but none of the writers that I knew were there, so I couldn't get in....oh well. At anyrate, I should do some homework for tomorrow. Dangit!

So I was just perusing the internet and I decided to look at some of Loftus' pictures (I used to have the link to his site, but he never updated...so he got the boot) and a couple of pics were of Saienga getting sized for his wedding tux. And it bummed me out. Because being in his wedding would've been great. At least I still get to go to it....although how I'm getting there from Iowa remains a mystery. Oh well, I figure I still have a couple of months.....ok, maybe a month and a half. Whatever. I need to go upstairs and do the dishes....since I've been saying that I'd do them for the past 4 days...and we have no clean silverware. This morning I made a PB&J using a steak knife. It was rough. Peace out.

So I was just sittin here doing nothing and not going to bed, for some reason...and I cruised over to the Beastie Boys website, looking for some sort of an update...and I looked at a thread on the message board where this dude lists a ton of music samples that the Beasties used when making their earlier albums....in other words, before the sampling laws were changed. Most likely you don't care, but if you do....check it out here. Not that it really matters, but I forgot that all of that stuff is on beastiemania
In other news, I want to go back to Wartburg. Only 10 more days and I'm outta here. I just have to waste 2 weeks of internship time because I told my supervisors that I realized that Journalism isn't for me. So I have my book idea my computer at work and I'm trying to get some work done there. Except....I've been stuck at this one turning point for literally 4 monthes now and I know what needs to happen next, but I can't figure out how to get there without "paraphrasing," so to speak, too much. It's annoying. You know...it's kind of like "Your body's on time and your mind is appealing" and I have to sit there "Staring at the cracks up there upon the ceiling." (Name the Beastie Boy song, anybody?) So it looks like I'm not doing anything, but I'm really trying to get the movie inside my head to play the full length movie. I'm stuck with all of these snipits and I don't know quite how to get them to flow together. Wowa. It's time to go to bed. This post was about nothing. Peace.

This will be the last time I post regarding said girl problem....and I probably shouldn't have even posted anything in the first place...and I may have crossed a line of some sorts. And I know it may have sounded like I was giving up or something, but I'm not going to. I just needed to write out my thoughts....and that's why I have this site.
In other news, Meredith figured out a way for me to live in yet another dorm on campus...without ever actually having to live there. You see, unofficially I plan on living in the Res, back with my old roommates. There will be a spot open for most of May Term and for the rest of it, well, there's the couch. But officially I need an actual room. So, I thought I'd email some first year in Clinton and explain the situation to them, telling them that if they let me "live" with them, they'd have a single room for all of May Term. But Meredith suggested I "live" in Hebron, that way I could add the Complex to my list of dorms that I have "lived" in. INGENIOUS! Anyway, i gotta go to bed. Peace out, y'all.

I've always said that drinking by yourself is a bad thing. Unfortunately, I've had to do just that over the past few days. Thursday night I only drank a six pack, but I think because I was in a bad state of mind and agitated by a talk with Meredith, it made me a whole lot drunker than it should've. I passed out at 10. Really bad, I know. Last night I didn't drink that much because I was working on a project, but I did drink by myself again. Today once again I had to drink alone because I was working on multitple projects and was getting bored. So a drank a little to spice my night up a bit. Again, not the best idea but I had too much crap to do so I couldn't go out and have fun. Stinky, yes, but I can only procrastinate so long. Eventually I had to buckle down.
So right now I'm having a difficult girl problem. I became rather interested with this girl while I have been out here. For a while I thought for sure I would have a chance of having some sort of future with her.....but with each day passing by I can feel her slipping away. I wish I could be around her all the time to make sure she doesn't make a huge mistake. Even though everyone is telling her the same thing, she still doesn't really listen. It's like she hears me saying things to her, but she doesn't listen to me. I thought she did for a long time, but I really don't think she does anymore. And I'm worried about losing her forever.....and I've told her this....but I dunno. I saw one path being the right one for her for nearly a year. When that path ended up being wrong she tried to leave it, but for some reason is sticking to it. I know she's in charge of her own life and really, in the grand scheme of things, I shouldn't have a say in anything, but I feel like she's being tricked into something that isn't real. She deserves to be treated like a Queen from the moment she starts dating any given guy. And she wasn't. Even now, from what I understand, she isn't. So many guys would treat her the way she should be treated, but for some reason she can't see that. It's frustrating. And I'm not sure what I should do.
And that is random....but I'm listen to A Tribe Called Quest and, for some reason, they bring that out in me. Strange.