I'm home right now, on fall break. I've actually got some homework done, unlike I usually do. It's probably because G-Master is at school now and there's nobody here to hang out with. Which is why I almost didn't come home....but I'm still glad I did. It's still good to see the family.
It's amazing how much has changed around here in only 2 months. I went to Mr. Movies to get a movie for tonight and to stop off at Snyders to say hi to some people, and the road (175th St., for those who know or care) is totally different. They were working on it over the summer and it was still closed when I left for school. What made matters worse tonight was that it was raining and dark outside. I almost drove off the road and totally went through a stop sign. Oops! Oh well. That whole intersection is 100% better now.
In my last couple of posts, I haven't mentioned anything about my most recent girl issues. There's a reason for that. You remember the 3 girls I mentioned at the beginning of the year? Those options are now gone. Meaning, I've screwed them up or boyfriends have moved into the picture. There was a girl last year who I liked, but at the time she had a brand-new boyfriend. Well, 2 weeks ago the dude broke up with her. I didn't hear about it until last weekend. Ironically enough, I hadn't really talked with her at all this year until this weekend....and then she was acting, unless it was my imagination, extra nice towards me. And then, a perfect situation arose. She was going to spend a couple of days during our break visiting her sister up in Brooklyn Park. Hmmm....She told me this moments after she offered me a ride home. Well, at the time I was getting kind of desperate for a ride, but I hadn't heard back from somebody and she lives way down in Owatonna, so I passed on the ride. But then later that night I was working downstairs at the library, staring at my homework....and I started thinking. And my mind wandered to this girl...and I thought about her in Brooklyn Park....me in Lakeville....I used to like her.....she knew I liked her....Do I still like her??....We should do lunch in MN! Well I went as far as walking up to her in the library before I thought better of it. I'll admit, it was a perfect situation....EXCEPT, I'm going to Denver for all of next semester and she's graduating in May. Maybe it could've worked...but not with this girl. She moves too slow on these types of things.....which is why I'm pretty sure this dude broke up with her. Although I don't really know. So now I'm back to square one. With no options.
*Sigh* I dunno.....and to make matters even more worse, this whole time I've been home (1.5 days) I've only been thinking about how much I missing talking with someone. And I can't talk about this particular person on here because this particular person may read this site. ARGH. And I can't miss this particular person the way I may do (I can't tell because I haven't allowed myself to for various reasons) because I know she doesn't in return and I know that even mentioning so on here may have reprecussions....but I have no one else that I can say it too and now my one sole place of release is gone...and now I'm going to explode. ARGH! But then again....absence makes the heart grow fonder....so what do I really know. nothing.