Wow....tonight was kind of crazy...but not in the alcohol sense. I mean, yes...I drank, but not as much as I have in the past. I started out in my room finishing off my column for the campus paper...and then I went to another room in my dorm, and then I went across campus to visit some senior girls I know...and then I went to the international student house and partied there for a while...and then I went to a towny bar called the Pour House with a bunch of 4th years. That was weird, I know, 'cause I was defenitely NOT a 4th yea, but I knew all of them...so it was cool. Plus, Meredith's boyfriend's band was playing. Although, I didn't see her BF until after 1 a.m......so I'm guessing he went back to her room for a while....which would explain why she didn't answer her cell phone. Oh well....I don't care. I don't have fun.
One weird thing that happened, was that i saw one of my Prof.'s at the Pour House. Granted he's pretty young and he graduated from Wartburg, but still....it was crazy drinking in the same place as him. And I know I was the only one out of my class that was there. And I know I was the only one out of my class that would EVER go there. Does that mean I move up a level in his view? Who knows. Another weird thing was that he was sitting and talking to a relative of mine that goes to Wartburg. Her relation to me is really weird....let's see if you follow: Her name is Christina, and is my mom's sister's husband's sister's grandaughter. Crazy! Should I be mad that my CGD prof. was hitting on my mom's sister's husband's sister's grandaughter? Probably not. Hahahaha. Anyway, I need to go to bed. WOWZAS!

I really think it was my computer graphic design project that was making me stressed out. It was due today and I am really happy with the way it turned out. Compared to our first project where we had to re-design a poster on campus, this one was 100% better.
The assignment was to express ourself using Adobe Photoshop. Yikes! I'm better at writing about myself....I've never been the one to make a picture. So I was struggling with this one. I did a couple of ideas and it wasn't really coming together. So last night I worked on it for a good 4 or 5 hours and re-did a few parts of the pictures and it ended up looking awesome. I wish I knew how to post a picture on here, 'cause I can't really describe it for you.
Now I'm not saying mine was the best of the class by any means. I'd say it was in the top 5 or 6. But I knew it was pretty good when the top CGD prof. walked through while we were doing critiques and pointed to a few of them and asked who made them. Mine was one he pointed to...and the others were 10 times better than mine, but I still got associated with them.
So anyway, I big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I still have another harder project due for the class a week from today, but at least now I have some confidence in myself. After our first project I lost all of that confidence. But yea......now I'm back to my happy old self again. Wahoo!

I don't know what's been the trouble lately. The last couple of days I haven't really felt myself. There are few times that I truly am bummed out. Normally something bad happens and I'm sad or depressed for part of the day and then I forget about it. Like if I do poorly on a test, I'll feel bad for the morning, but by suppertime I feel like my normal self. I guess I'm generally a happy person. So I wouldn't say that I'm feeling sad or anything....I'm just not happy. Small things that shouldn't piss me off have gotten on my nerves as of late. It could be because one of my roommates acts like a dick 90% of the time and I'm just getting sick of ignoring him. Now I give him a chance to knock it off and if he doesn't, then I just leave the room. Just seconds ago I stopped playing a video game with him right in the middle 'cause he was being stupid.
So that could be why I'm not being myself...but I don't know. I hadn't realized that anybody else noticed anything....in fact I don't really think anybody had, until Meredith said something about it. So that's bad.
I think I'm also a little sad that the semester is almost over and then I'll have to leave all of my friends here and go to Denver. The people I'm going with are pretty cool and I would call some of them "aquaintences" but not really friends. Not friends like the ones I have at Wartburg. *sigh* I don't know.
Usually when I feel like this I'll sit down and write a couple of chapters of my story I'm working on....but my dorm room really isn't a good atmosphere for writing. There's way too much noise and distractions. So I can't even use writing as an outlet. And that's pretty much the only outlet I really have.

Weekend update time!
For not so much happening this weekend, a lot happened. What? Really all I did this weekend was have 2 band concerts and then do homework. But last night, from about 8:30 until 2:30 a.m. a ton of important stuff went down. After my part of our band concert, my group is supposed to go listen to the other band and then we do a joint thingy at the end. Instead of going to listen to the other group, though, I went to a computer lab and worked on my Computer Graphic Design project. Well, while I was working on this project, my oldest brother (the one in the army) called me. I've known for a while that he is pretty much for sure going to Iraq this spring. Just recently we learned that his wife joined his unit and now they'll both go at the same time. Even though I've known about this, I haven't had a chance to talk about it....mainly because I didn't want to think about it. But I finally talked to him about it on Saturday night....and how his training ops will affect me when I'm in Denver this next term. But when we got done discussing all of that, he proposed something very interesting. Apparently they plan on leaving their house (in Colorado Springs, CO) empty while they're in Iraq, except they are planning on allowing an Army friend (presumably from West Point) move in next October. But that leaves the whole summer with their house empty. They asked me if I would like to spend the summer in Colorado Springs in their house and work out there, just as a change of pace. Then I could live in their house and drive their cars and do something other than hang out at SA. I must say, it sounds like a very attractive offer. I'll need to think about it, though.
After that conversation I didn't feel like going back and finishing off the concert and so I left and went back to my room and had a good 6 or so shots of rum with a couple of roommates and then went on to a different room to hang out with some people. But I really didn't want to be there all that much and I didn't have any beer to drink....so really, what's the point?
From there I went to my friend Meredith's room. (I found out last night that a lot more Wartburg people read this than I thought and apparently people are annoyed that I don't mention names. At the same time, I know people get annoyed when I DO mention names.....but I guess I will start to put in names because it makes it easier to keep everything straight.) We just kind of sat around and waited for another friend, Jess, to get back to her room so that we could start drinking Jess's booze. But....Jess being Jess, that took a couple of hours, so there was no more drinking to be had. Not a whole lot else happened that night.....except for one major event....and it was centralized around this very site.
As I mentioned above, I found out that a lot more Wartburg people read this site than I thought. That could be either good or bad......especially with what I have written in the previous few posts....but what it ultimatly means is that I cannot be as candid and frank as I would like to be. Not because I care all that much about people knowing what my opinions are....but because it may sound like I am spreading rumors or whatever. So even though last year I pledged that I would cease holding anything back......I am now forced to choose my words carefully. The content will be largely the same, but because my target audience has changed.....certain things will be left out. Sorry.