Man, I'm having nostaligia like none other right now. Maybe because I'm right on the edge of being drunk. I've only had a few beers...but keep in mind I haven't had multiple drinks in nearly 2 weeks. I'm at that point where, if you sit back and think about it.....it seems like you can feel bubbles moving through your body.....from your toes to your forehead. I probably shouldn't be posting right now, but something made me depressed enough to just want to get drunk....*sigh*...I hate being in a big house all to myself. Normally I'd have someone to talk to right now, but I know I don't. Damnit. Why does life have to turn out this way? Why can't it turn out the way you'd envisioned it? Sh.......aw, nevermind. What the heck am I doing anyway....I should just go to bed....but I won't. Damnit. I don't know what to do. I wish she (and friends) weren't going to read this so I could just speak my mind.

God bless friends like Saienga....I wish I could hang-out with him more often...if ever. Awwww. F... I'm going to stop typing right now.