At any rate, I was going play my band concert in memory of Chad and do the pre-concert devotions about him.....but then I decided it wasn't gonna be a good idea to make everyone sad before the big concert..........so I didn't, but someone else did..........you know how when you have something really meaningful to share with people you care about, but then another person does something similar and.........it's like you can't share your feelings because it seems like you are copying them?? I REALLY wanted to do this thing about chad, being his birthday and all........but I didn't...........we both would've been in college together this year......of course, he DEFINITLY would NOT have gone to a school in Iowa....no doubt about that! But still.....it would've been cool to share those college stories........damn it...........