*sigh* I needed a good trombone lesson today...and I got it. After being beaten down so much, my lesson teacher raised my spirits....and now I'm confident in myself again. I think the reason I so horribly failed in that last audition was because I was looking for an easy way out. Subconciously, I wanted my self to fail so I could get out of the audition ASAP. Normally, I would NEVER quit in an audition. It's unheard of. Even if you screw up in any piece...ever....you ALWAYS finish it out and then go back and see what you did wrong. When I quit in the middle of a song in my lesson, my lesson teacher said "what are you doing? Don't just stop!" It made me realize that quitting was the easy way out. You don't get better if you just quit. Which is why I'm going to try and be more committed to my trombone this year....but we'll see how that goes.....more details to come.